my dear memories

do they need me??

2009-12-20T03:30:00.001+08:00

i dun think so they are happy now!! should not disturb them......haiz...

oh God!!! y must he do this to me!!!

2009-12-20T03:25:00.000+08:00

apa maksudnya dia kembali pada ku?? ku tak mengerti ?? adakah dia masih mencintai ku lagy ?? ku bingung?? kadang kala ku terfikir2 adakah dia jujur??
Ya Allah tolong ku !!!
love
Anna

Dimas! kekasih baru ku...

2009-12-20T03:20:00.000+08:00

Dimas , adalah seorg jejaka yg telah membuat hati ku senang ... tidak putus memberi ku semangat.... dia mencintai ku sepenuh jiwa raga nya... sungguh pun kita jauh,, dia tidak pernah lupakan ku....
selalu ingat kan ku selalu bersembahyang dan doa kepada Nya agar hidup kita agar tenang...... dia ngubah kan ku lagu yg membuat ku lagi terharu dan sayang lagi padanya......sungguh pun itu..... dia tidak pernah tahu rintihan hatiku ini... ku tidak bisa membuat dia rasa bimbang dan sedih kerna kita berjauhan ...... semoga jodoh ku berpanjangan sama Dimas... ku berharap agar dia dpt menerima ku dgn apa adanya ku.....Amin
love
Anna

im down!!!!! oh God help me!!!

2009-12-20T02:57:00.003+08:00

i just dun fyl myself lately... but y??? y??? who am i to them?? when they nid me, they come to me... but wen they dun they ever bother???????? oh God,...... y must this be to me....
i just nid my life back..... im stresss!!!! my mum nid to go for op.....but so many complications make my heads hurt... i love her... i dun wish to lose her... she is the only precious person left for me.... i still nid and treasure her....ye aku marah dia, suara tinggi kat dia... tapi tu bkn niat ku... i just love her of who she is... she is my mother who protect me since born till im now.... who still i have ?? my siblings?? do they bother??
yess they do!! but... still my closeness is still w my mother... they cun replace my parents........... my friend aynn... besties since small together...go sch ,eat ,play and spent time together.....for 13 yrs of frenship whr has she been??
she nid me when evrting seems not fine for her... wen happy mmts do she remamber me??
who i am to her.... im bored at home.... no one cntacts me... yes my fren does... but i just fyl down and start to drift away from them... i dun wan coz of my stress and down i lost my frens... they r great to me... but (sigh) i just wana cry now..... i miss my dad will he be here again to protect me?
i just miss dose mmts w him... he loves to make jokes and the one who make my family smile... but now wen his gone,,, my life is such a disasterous and led unhappy life.... y?? ppl must hate me?? what i have done to them make them sick of me?? have they never done any mistake?? are they pure and pious enuf to teach me??
what am i to my fren?? family?? siblings?? myself??
im confused..... i have hurt a lot of ppl ard me.... am i useless to them??????
but i noe to Allah , im not the useless... only He noes how i feel.......
now i just nid to isolate myself from others.... im helpless.... bored.... y should i present myself to anyone ... i might just hurt them physically , emotionally and mentally..... am i turning mad???
oh God,,,,, Ya Allah , kenapa dgn ku ni??? adakah ku tidak berguna lagi di mata mereka? adakah kerna dosa ku itu semua ingin mengutuk ku? mencaci ku? layan ku asal blh??
adakah ku manusia seperti patung yg tak ada perasaan...
ku benar2 sedih...merintih sendirian.... aku kesian melihat keadaan mak ku itu... sunngguhpun dia sudah tua dan lanjut usia bagiku dia tetap berguna..... ku menyayangi ibu ku... dia la ibu ku yg tercinta.... dia adalah seorg wanita yg terhebat ... dia senantiasa di hatiku... dan idola ku... org tal penah mengerti perasaan ibuku... tapi ku mengerti... kadang2 wlwpun ku mengerti....kenapa ku masih meradang ke ibu ku Ya Allah.... ku sedar dosa ku itu... tapi ku tak pernah fhm perasaan ku sendiri...... maafkan ku.... mama ana selalu doa mama yg terbaik........
love
Anna

facebook make my life busy ......

2009-12-11T23:40:00.000+08:00

im terrible exhausted layankan facebook sampai tak ingat my other accounts like flixster and my yearbook... bila niari check huh ko byk mcg nk kena balas pening nye aku!!!! AAAArrrrrrghhhh!!!!!!!!! hahaha now kecian my blog tak dihuni beberapa minggu... ku asyik busy sampai tak terupdate my blog.... nvm ... now i gt the time i can update!!!! Weeeeeeee!!!!
love
anna

my Ate!!!!

2009-12-11T23:13:00.002+08:00

Ate Lanie thta day on 30th dec was sick...im so worried abt her.... the dr suspect that she maybe had a minor stroke... so her refer her to ttsh for further investigation... i do accompany her... haiz however i have to qait outside w my aunt... its sooooooo booooored that i cun take it... BUT ku cuci mata hahaha paramedics hot sey!!! heheeh at the same time ku kacau diana yang ku yang sakit intsead of my ate... heheh diana sedih sey....alalaalal.hahahahaha... she scared if i die... hehhe joke.... sori diana.... but anyway do kip my mcg abt my last wish .kkk???
gtg c ya!!!
love
anna

Single life....

2009-10-25T02:06:00.000+08:00

Haiz..... life is so unpredictable.....i realise 10 mth ago i was with him however 10 mth later im single.... its soo hurt to be that way as it is... w/o him yes i can suvive but hearts affair i cun survive.... i miss him soo much but it is impossible for us to patch back.... well move on , i just have this stereotype of mind that guys are ol the same they are w us just to hurt us ,the women?? PrOmIsEs after promises , swearing upon and beautiful of bundle of his words to attract us was so easy for them ... they are the pros for sweet say to us.... cun they be honest to us... they have the same mindset to trap us and to do what they want us to do..... they can easily come and GO bUT NoT fOr us , WoMeN we cun let em go just like that after pouring and sharing our eternity love with them.... they are easy to come HoWeVer not easy to let go..... wen they wan, they use us... but wen they dun wan, out you go to the trash bin....
isn't it so hurtful?? wat they take women for??
they can say," It's just a game.." , but to us?? we dun take them for a fool or some idiotic to play ard... we wan them to care and love us like how we do to em.....
at times wen i seriously think that love is just a daily routine... and sometimes i just dun fyl wanting to fall in love again.... why cun there be any guy who will be serious and lovely to love us like we do... we did not us them anything but just to love us and dun take us for granted..... i hope the guys outta there will be a better man....

SwEeT lOvE

AnnaYuKi

Laughing day at Nurul's birthday.....

2009-10-25T01:28:00.007+08:00

ToDay i met Diana @ YiShuN MrT Control station... she has waited for me quite somtimes....GuilTy to MakE heR WaIt FoR mE... LuCkiLy sHe undastands me...Hahaha then we proceed to buy NurUl'S bIRthDaY prEsEnt...the best part is we had double chocolate fraPPe @ macDoNaLd....YummmmmY!!!!!!!! im so loving it.... i want it SOmE MuR!!! both of us took CaBbIE to MiRa's hse after that and HuDz and her BoFiE was thr earlier than us..settle down for a wile @ MiRa'S hse .....Oh Oh?! our stomach GroAning in pain ... want to noe y??

coz we r famish... cun wait to have a BiG FeAsT !!! the weather was so hot that melts our make up...haiz...cut short ...we go to the part where DiAnA cannot release the party PoPpErs hahahahaha....HuDz and i saw her reaction it was so funny that we cudden even stop laughing...... we had a gr8 bonding w the 4 AnAk dArA....i can say each time the sisters meet , we surely turn out Gi:La.....hahahahha laughing like hell like nobody business... full of joke .... oh and ya DiAnA
came to my hOuSe yeah!!! im so delighted!!!
OveRaLl, my life is made MeaNiNgFuL w them ard me and my life filled w laughter and happy moments as olways..... w/o them i would be a loner and no moments to be remembered.... ThAnK YoU mY SiStErz!!!!

olways LoVe You O:L(=

SwEeT lOvE
AnnaYuKi